January 20, 2008
One of Those Weeks…
Written by Girth McDürchstein on January 20, 2008 5:22 AM
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You know that gnr song ‘Sometimes these things just seem to rip you right in two, oh no man don’t let ‘em get ta you….’? I’m having one of those weeks…I just got 2 new kittens, brothers and sisters, named miss cleopatra and mister tommy slater…they are the best of friends, which is wonderful, but being young, they are into everything, including some things I didn’t know you could get into…mister slater also seems to want to wake me up at 5am to say hello…well, the music for the pop and folk record is going really swell, just starting to get into a groove writing some songs…predominantly focusing on melodies right now, leaving the words for a bit further down the road, which is unusual, but necessary…in the months to come, I am going to share some things with you that you have never heard me say…that doesn’t mean I’m rewriting history, that means I’m going to tell you the truth about who I am and what I believe in my heart…a lot of things that I have said thru the years seemed confusing, like I was hiding somethin!g, and often times I was…’why’, you might ask? Many times I hid to protect my band mates…for example, its been almost 6 years since I went on my friend gina’s radio show and announced that ‘the Hedge’ would be coming out…that day, when she asked why it took 4 years to put out an album and why we had to go to england to record it, I said something silly like, ‘because I was in prison for events strangely similar to those on the record blah blah’…and it went on to be widely quoted, as if I spent 4 years, after recording 3 records in about 2 years, trying to get this 1 album together…and you know, let’s just not worry about losing the fans or what have you…by saying that, I was seen as a songwriter who couldn’t get his act together, which was sad cause it wans’t true at all…The truth of the matter is is at the time I was a bandleader who lost controll…did it help that tommy was out, along with our previous (never released) album? No, that didn’t help, not at all…it made it very hard to go on, but we soldier! ed thru it even though our hearts were broken…But tommy didn’t slow us down, we didn’t let him…and I didn’t go to prison at all…but really this was all mikey and Riffs and Jam who had no respect…Jam kept trying to steal control…Mikey disrespected…Riffs acted crazy and unpredictable…but I was too loyal to them…I couldn’t stop them from convincing me to make bad decisions…undermining my creative authority…I did what they asked to protect them, to protect the band…but I won’t be protecting them anymore…and I won’t be protecting a whole lot of other people anymore…not because I don’t love them (I do!!) but because I love myself too…I want to say one more thing, and that is I appreciate you reading this…+I want to remind you that I love you…God has given me the strength to say that to you, and I hope that you don’t hide who you are…does it make me sad that I have hid myself all these years? No, it was what I had to do to survive, or least what I ‘thought’ I needed to do…but surviving is not enough…we all deserve to flourish, and to know happiness and joy…that is my new dream…abysmal crucifix gave me that, and I am eternally grateful…especially to those that shared in the dream with me…even if you bought just one cd, or came to a show, you gave us a chance…we thank you for that…even if we don’t always know how to show it…even if we change our genre, name, and attitude to better reflect the political climate and avoid exhaustive media coverage…be well!! Girth
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